Say What You Need to Say
Tonight I went to the hospital to see someone I haven’t spoken to in 10 years. I was very close to this person most of my life. And I didn’t want to go and see this person. I didn’t feel like it and I didn’t want to be part of drama. But I went because I let some friends decide for me because I didn’t know if I was thinking rationally.
I arrived at the hospital and went in. There was a male nurse inside administering medicine and the person I went to visit was flailing all over. I thought he had a stroke and wasn’t able to move. I backed out of the room and waited until he was done. Then I put on a plastic robe and gloves and went in. I visited many people in the hospital and never needed to put on a robe or gloves.
Before I went I wasn’t sure what I was going to say, but I knew whatever words came out of my mouth would be honest and straightforward. As he laid there, I talked about everything in my life. EVERYTHING! And he just laid there while I spoke. Once in awhile he coughed as a response to what I said. I knew some things I said upset him because he coughed quite a bit. But his head remained facing the ceiling and I talked to his neck.
And afterwards I felt good. Good because I told him everything I ever wanted to say about anything and everything. And he had to sit there and listen to my babble. It was probably one of the longest REAL conversations that I have ever had with this person. But I am glad friends told me to go and I am glad that I said everything I ever wanted to say.
And now he will probably get better because I told him a lot of personal things and I am sure he would love to tell a lot of people about it….because Irish people are like that. And I said all the important things too.
My friend waited for me and she told me that the doctor said the person who I went to see wasn’t able to talk at all, but is improving. Upon hearing this, I know I should have been sad for him and his family, but I wasn’t. Maybe because I didn’t believe he was in such bad condition or maybe because I hadn’t seen him in so long. I said everything I needed to say to someone who couldn’t communicate. LOL – only me. Grateful to God for moments like this.
Add on: Several friends sent me Jon Mayer’s words….And I smiled because I love this song so much: “You’d better know that in the end. Its better to say too much. Then never say what you need to say again”
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nSS0wtjrm1U
Hugs,
marlene
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